you'll go out in style.

the internet is so pointless lately. on facebook all people ever do is update their status to retarded things like 'doing to take a shower' and 'LOL I'm soooo stoned'. like i don't give a shit about that. nor is there anything better to do on the internet besides blog when it is most likely no one is going to read it anyways.

i have been really thinking a lot about friday lately. i don't know why you wont talk to me and just think that our friendship is over. just because i walk away means that i don't ever want to talk to you anymore? what the hell did you want me to say? just... ugh. then you just go to amber. is she your back-up friend or something? like what? i try to contact you and you don't answer. i obviously want to talk to you about this, but it seems like you dont want to hear what i say. at least i have a friend that will listen to me for the most part. i guess the boys can just pick on you now.

my summer is going to suck. i have to do some intense working on my english.. which i have to do basically 2 mods in a week. i hate how i procrastinate. i need to be with people who can motivate me. because the only time i ever feel like doing anything is late at night. but that isn't that healthy. i am so scared for this social final. but to a sense i feel like i know a lot of it.

i hate having to make this decision even though i have made up my mind in my head. i want to go with my auntie but i love my dad too, but adele can go fuck herself. ugh. all i feel i ever do on here is rant rant rant.

fuck you like a billionaire.

wow. so school is basically done except for an exam then its summer 09 for me. so far, its been amazing and jason, ashley and i went to calgary yesterday. went to the zoo and shopped for a bit. and of course what's a trip to calgary without getting lost? bahaha.

i think you guys are warming up to me and getting to know me better. y'know... with the me acting like a fag whilst being intoxicated. but everyone knows i only do that in front of close friends and if i feel like.... taking my clothes off... but i am no longer known as 'it' by ted.

home life has been such a piss off lately. my mom is all anal about getting my trip paid off even though i have paid like 3/4 of it myself so far. and she's all worrying about me and getting my summer school stuff finished but it's not even my fault because the stupid fucking lady didn't give me ALL of the shit nor did she tell me what i was really supposed to be doing. so now that's like 2 and a half weeks wasted and nothing has been handed in because they guy gave me my mod one back so i could do a better job on it. but ashley and jason said they would help me do it so i could be done quicker =).

i don't really know what to do or say to you anymore. there are those days where yeah, i would rather hang out and be with them, but i like being there and talking to you too about the deep stuff. i dont want to do this to you, but this is just how things are at the moment.

i don't blame you for not wanting to come home sober. or stay sober at home. my mom is pissing me off more and more and it's parcially her fault. if she didnt want me spending money then why did she let me go to calgary. whatever.

things still feel and seem really complicated right now, but i don't have to deal with bitches right now. another thing that makes me mad is that i am pretty sure i have known you longer than she has but you would rather be on 'good terms' with her and not me? like wtf did i ever do to you. its your problem you took her side with this whole thing. and don't get me wrong, i am NOT keeping on with this, but that angers me. and why would she go to your lame party when there is no one that is actually decent going? and have fun bitches, if you want to be like this, you get to deal with this in italia bitches. =)