let the rain fall down and wake my dreams, let it wash away my sanity.

i wish i could come to terms and just tell everyone what i think of them. im sick of people using me and making fun of me. i just dont know what to think anymore. now that i am going on this trip, i can't leave to the coast anymore. not till after i graduate.

im getting so stressed out about graduating. im probably going to have to go take courses at outreach so i can even get enough credits. i wish i didnt have such a shitty fashions teacher so i could get more than 2 fucking credits.

why did you decide to fucking apologize to her now? what are your plans even? i don't want my bestfriend getting taken away from me. i have already had too many things taken from me. im so afraid of being alone that i dont know what to do.

i just want to get away from it all.

you got a body like the devil.

so the travel club is going to italy & greece next easter and i was like, i deffs want to go. i have been wanting to go to greece since grade six and having the olympics in athens in '04 made me want to go even more. my dad is supposed to put down the deposit today and after he does that..... IMMA FCKIN GOING TO EUROPE AGAIN BITCHESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

on that note, i really dont think our little group is going to last that much longer. it is so divided and no one likes each other. yet they seem fine because they are still hanging around each other. i dont really know who to trust anymore or talk to besides my bff. ugh. life is just confusing right now. and a little stressful.

yupp yupp photofinnish.

i hate this. i hate having to keep secrets because if i truely tell you who i am with you will freak out at me. and there are times i just dont know what to say to you.

im going to waterton tomorrow with jessica... should be interesting.

i dont care if someone doesnt like me. and people saying that i should be nicer to the person to try and get them to like me again is bullshit. i am not going to impress someone that doesnt like me in the first place.

i am soooo happy. i have 400 dollars saved up in 20 dollar bills. if anyone attempts to steal mah money, you = dead.

meh.