crush. crushing. crushed.

i dont know what to think at the moment. so many things are going on its just like blah. my great uncle paul died today. amber cant hang out today (what a surprise -_-). my birthday is in 4 days, and my auntie is buying me a slabbery cake =). my cousin asked me to be the photographer at her reception. i hope i can have some fun too. yesterday i ate like nothing and i had the worst headache ever so i went to sleep at like 7. then woke up at 10. i also found out that audrey kitching's birthday is the day before mine! which is pree fckin sweet. i want to celebrate with her. too bad im not 21... i dont think my sweet sixteen will be all that sweet. my mom is moving in january, and i havent a clue what to do. i mean if i stay here, i dont know where to stay. because we all know that there's no way in hell im staying with my dad.


I wish I could disappear, and run away from all of my fears, I think
I'm coming undone. So stay the night, I promise that I won't bite,
Cause without you there, I don't think I could close my eyes. How
Do I end up this way, a constant knot in my gut tied with
Uncertainty and with lust. A classic case I suppose a haunted
Man who cant outrun his ghosts, there in my skin and my bones.