strawberry fields forever.

so work today was lame. the first two hours i felt fine, but the last two i wanted to throw up and i had a super bad headache. i havent felt so sick in a long time. i hope i dont get sick. urgh. then ali came up to me and was like what can you work and he gave me these lame hours. and i really want to go shopping. i want a pair of skull candy headphones. and a new bag. i guess thats why i have a job. lol. but yah. i probably failed my science test.. im so sad. mr.s-man is gone. he was like the best intern ever. im like super sleepy. i guess i'll make this a short blog. lol.

mama mia. here we go again.

well, the past few days have been just insane. including today.
well yesterday was a fucking rampage. everyone was messing up and behind and people werent taking their food and it was horrible. i met a new bff. and shes adorable. holy fuck. like everyone smokes at work. like smoking is for the weak! they will all get lung cancer and die. and today was iffy. from about 3:30 till 5 was nice and quiet, i could go my own speed, he called me 'dear'. and they had to shut down drive through. the kitchen was behind and they werent letting anyone in till 8. i was like holy shit. and i might not be going to work tomorrow. if this gay ass snow continues, then im probably not going. oh yah, i cant go. my mom is going to church. and same with my dad. so i have no ride. well. that changes things. i should probably email ed or something to let him know. and also tell him about my trip and to ask if i can change my availability. i want to work tuesday instead of sunday. it would be less busy hopefully. and i would be working with stevie. im sooo exhausted. and my feet hurt. oh yah. i also cant go to work tomorrow because i have homework... maybe ed will understand. omgogmogm. i cant wait till monday and tuesday. im making ice cream =) well, orange sherbet. but still, yuuuuuuuummy. =)
okay so i tell my friend that i cant go to her birthday because i dont want to be taking extra time off. im already taking that whole week in may off. and she's like 'so much for 'friends'.' well im fucking sorry. i tell you straight out and you dont like it. if i were to tell you either way you dont like it. its a lose/lose situation. im fucking happy im leaving for a week. i need to get out of here. lethbridge is filled with fucking drama and drama queens.
so, today i was at my grandmas and i was watching tv. i came upon this show on much music about abba. so i decide to watch it, and holy shit. the blonde lead singer is soo gorgeous when she was like 20. and their music is pretty good. i have had mama mia in my head all day. lol. god there has been so much stuff i didnt get done today. i need to stay home from work tomorrow. this is ridiculous. oh yah, and another reason to make my life unhappy at the moment is the fact that manwhore is here. luckily i havent seen him most of the time due to work. thank god for that. and i finally got a paycheck yesterday. =) and im super sleepy but i want to stay on my lappy. its been a while since i have been on here. =)

keep it corroded the rust, the dust.

holy shit. i havent realized how many bitches there are out there. just today i found out what this one guy really says. and holy shit, he's a bitch. thats right. he. god, i hate people. mostly codependent people. they dont know the meaning of love without having to have someone with them all the time. its like the next fucking baby fad. when all the celebs would adopt babies, then everyone else and started adopting. honestly. omg, my dad might be getting me a few lessons for either drums or guitar. i really hope he does. because i would love to learn either. oh yah, then he's probably gonna sign me up for drivers education. so im gonna actually learn how to drive in the city. oh joy. :rolleyes: but at least i can have practice. i have no idea where im gonna find all this time to do all this. maybe when the swiss slows down (if it ever does) i'll go do all this. im seriously going to kill myself. we need more people in pantry. there's no way in hell im working sunday by myself. i get the fucking church/lunch crowd. and stevie can't fucking work. what the hell am i going to do. i know im probably blowing this totally out of proportion, but i dont deal with stress that easily. people say these things that sound to simple. but for me its the whole nine yards.

do you think about me now and then.

well, i have been thinking if getting a job was a good idea or not. i mean the hours i got this week suck. im not going to be able to work like all these hours they have given me. i wanted a job. not a job thats gonna move school work out of the way. fucking sunday im working all by my fucking self. im not even that confident to be working salads AND desserts alone. they need to hire more people. 2 people is not enough for a shift, let alone one person. there needs to be at least 3 people each shift. i doubt i am going to be able to switch my shifts. im kinda jealous of stevies shifts. they would work sooo much better for me. but i hate to be so nitpicky about my shifts right away. but addison did say shit about 'accomodating to people'. im so frustrated right now. i would like to tell a therapist my problems, but i dont think that would solve anything. and getting a therapist would probably cost a lot. but i dont know who i would tell any of my problems to. i cant trust my dad because he would fucking tell the whole world. oh thanks dad for letting the whole fucking place hear the real side of me. i would just love to tell everyone who i hate straight up. and why i hate them. urgh, thinking about all this shit is giving me a headache. but for all of you, its something to think about.

falling on.

so this past week has been eventful. i have officially started training. im in pantry. its soo fun. i getta make people salads and desserts. yummy! i cant wait to try some of the cheesecake. also this past week, there was the junos. feist was amazing. even though i didnt go it was still amazing. im just soo happy im working in the same area as my friend. if i was all alone, i would kill myself. even though they want me to take off my nails. its not fucking nail polish people. these dont come off like nail polish. so they can fuck me sideways. there is one person i do not like so far. oh wait, make that two. but luckily they arent im my department, so they cant tell me shit. plus, im wearing gloves. fuck, i want cheesecake now. well, i guess i will have some tonight. brad told stevie, ali, and i that he would make us something special. lol.

i am me.

omg, its freaking april. only like what, 3 months left of school? where the fuck does time go? its been a blast and a half though. so, im totally going to comox in may. im soo excited. havent been there in like 2 years. im soo happy im flying there. if i was driving there, i would be making hannah's throwing up noises the whole time. lol. i would seriously like to tell people straight up what i think of them. maybe if i move to comox, i will tell people what i think of them before i go. but it all depends on the school. if they have the right courses, im fucking leaving. and then i can fly to see my friends or my soon to be stepdad will send my friends out there. amber should totally move after she finishes school. and yah. it would be soo awesome. we could hook up with some haw-t's. =) i cant wait to eat creme brulee in an olive dish. hehe. i loved eating cookies while sitting on the floor and reading horton hears a who. it was like grade two again. minus mean teacher. i cant wait to see where life decides to take me...