imma break these chains.

wow. my birthday was pretty decent compared to last year and having to go to prayers for my mom's uncle. didn't really do much. went to stirling got some ice cream, went to gma's which was interesting. i guess the quote of the day was forgive and forget. went to the mall and tried on dresses at winners. tried on a dress that i didn't think would look good on me and i liked it. quote two of the day don't judge a book by its over. coco pazzo was delish and my grandma can make that cake and i will never ever hate it. i guess i can wait for a party some other time.

4/6 mods for english done, only 2 more for thursday, but i might be going to calgary.. don't know if that's going to happen. but if i went it would give me a chance to visit with my stepsisters. and they love me lol.

i'm so confused with everything. people make no sense, people who i think hate me are telling me happy birthday, and people who i thought were my friends think i'm a bitch. i just don't know.

let me out this cage.

i am over you. but why do you keep on coming back to me. do you not realize what you do makes no one like you? all you have is your ugly ass boyfriend of "ten" months. you just use him because he's moved out and you can escape there. i dont even see how your life is that bad. yeah, the parents are a bit bitchy, but you have everything.

holy balls. 6 freaking days till bittersweet seventeen as i am calling it. not doing anything because i have no friends and no money. oh well, i will make it awesome. or maybe i can do something later on.

oh fuck me. manwhore is back. and i don't want anything to do with him. thank god im probably going to see my gma tomorrow. bill probably didnt get me anything for my birthday either. and i dont really care. i wish my mother never got a prenup. could of divorced the bitch and taken all his money... even though he'd probably take all my mothers because he's a manipulative/persuasive bitch like that.

now that this house situation is over... i wish you would just divorce her already. can't you see all she has done is drive us apart? we used to do all these things but now, its just like we are more apart. i miss how everything was before all of this shit happened. the floats, milkshakes, the late night movies, the hide-a-bed.

ignorance is your new best friend

wow. 14 days till my birthday. where has july gone? so much has already happened and i'm not sure what to think... apologies and jealousy. i think it's obvious we are both kinda jealous of each other. and that apology shocked me. i think its going to be a bit awkward next time we see each other because we haven't talked in forever...
we need to hang out soon... but to a sense i feel replaced by your work friends. you tell me of how they take you out to movies and it just sounds like you have more fun with them than me.
well since my birthday is a no go... with the money i get is going to italy for sure and maybe a gym membership. i want to get into shape for grad.. even though thats not till next june.
i can't wait till august. jess is taking me back to milk river for parties. and i haven't partied in forever! but i am kinda on edge about it because i know no one out there and who knows whats going to happen.
this english i am attempting is really hard. i wish to a sense i just stuck it out with bitch face, but i have a hard time paying attention.. oh well...
i dont really know what else to say...