in pursuing design.

you can call out friendship over. i have been nothing but nice to you and now you just turn against me? what is this with you and being a bitch. i thought we were pretty close. you dont talk to me anymore even though i try to start talking to you, you just ignore me. you have changed so much since you have become a vegitarian. i honestly hope you feel guilty about your friendship with your other friend. i hope you feel like you were a bitch to him. you deserve a taste of your own medicine. and today when you were laughing at my hair, why dont you fuck off. i could laugh at you. but i dont. i dont want to be a bitch to you. i cannot wait till you turn on your own bestfriend. dont come running to me.

money diamonds gold and ice.

okay so i have an early christmas list already! because i want so many god damn things. haha.

• mac book
• sewing machine
• rockband 2
• money
• clothes

but on the other hand, i feel like i am hated all around. like, no one talks to me anymore. honestly, what did i ever do or say to you that made you feel this way about me. like i dont usually keep grudges, but you are making me hate you even more. everyone is so goddamn kniving these days. you are going to have barely any friends when you move on. even your best friend might turn on you. everyone needs a fresh start some day.

copper II sulfate.

okay, so recently, i got sick. i feel like shit and im supposed to be at work. i cant really breathe and my ear hurts because i got my rook pierced. and like no one knows what the hell it is. haha. if i feel worse tomorrow, i dont know what im going to do. my pay check isnt going to be that big. but i dont care. i dont really feel that bad about not being at work because i am actually sick. its not like im faking sick. LOL. and today i skipped math. im being bad today. but i literally feel like shit. at least i got my eyeshadow i wanted and i got some earrings and a few other things. well since i can barely breathe and talk, im out.

houuuuse.

1) today was awkward. i wish i could talk to boys but im so used to fucking them over. and i never really had any "guy friends" either. so if anyone hits on me, i will just say fuck off. or just laugh at them.
2) you are so effing two faced. asking me about my piercing? and seeming all happy? wtf. you are about as scene as i am.
3) my dad always wants to see my at the wrong time. im so scared im gonna fail science. my teacher is effing crazy. talking about his drunken or sober roomies. and him all mangled. that makes me lul e'ryday.
4) i have been feeling awkwardly sick lately. like stomach sick. i dont know why. its like when im in a car/bus or when im at home. i want to stay home, but i dont want to miss school.
5) holy effing shit. i love fashions. im loving my dress. i love everything dealing with fashions.
6) i need to stop going to greens.

we lied, we can't go on.

wow. this has been a slow two days. oh well. im getting my hair did on thursday and all i know is how i want it cut. i dont know what i want to do with the color. something funky. i made my first DIY project. it went fairily smooth. last friday i got my belly button pierced. its hard to believe i have it. it hurt a little. but on saturday im getting an ear piercing. =) omg. the new nano's suck ass. except for the colours. thats fckin sweet. i want one kind of, but my ipod isnt full yet. so yah. gotta jet. pce.

'cause a hoe won't trust me.

get the fuck over yourself. you take everything so personally. let it go. yah what i said was a little hypocritical. and yes i will probably get more piercings. okay. you need to learn to stop taking things to heart. you will have more enemies than friends. get over yourself.

on the school front, i kind of wish i kept cosmo. this semester is kind of messed up now that i have independent calm. i wish i could of gotten it next semester. oh well. maybe i will just have 2 spares. and no one will no i am really in grade eleven. hahaha.

my dad wants me to stay with him when my mom goes to san fran. like you will ever have your house up and going then. i am planned to stay with my auntie and uncle. its either that or im staying with my auntie gail. ugh. i hate life sometimes. but for the time being, im having a blast. =)

wake me up.

okay so the first day of school went alright. i have at least one person i know in every class. which is pretty cool. im really scared for math though. i NEED to pass. i need to get back those credits because im probably not going to take math 30. because i dont know how i will be able to take that diploma. but for the most part, i should be okay. my science teacher is crazy. but cool at the same time. i dont know how i will be able to keep a straight face. lol. but i am getting my industrial done on friday. its gonna hurt like a motha'. haha. i hope i get a new job soon. i am considering going on the london/paris trip. but im not sure if i can get 4000 dollars by easter. im pretty excited for october. except for my mothers wedding... and her going to san fran. oh well. maybe they will buy me something from san fran. =)